READY TO TAKE ON THE CHANCES. I HATE THINKING “WHAT IFS”. RATHER DO IT AND FAIL THAN NOT DO IT AND WONDER. EXCITED TO SEE WHAT IS AHEAD OF ME; GIVING IT A COUPLE MORE MONTHS THAN WE SHALL SEE :)

best birthday ever with my sisters aka best friends. definately tons of memories…now i can’t wait for July…for hong kong, will consist of more memories ! :)

<3 Marlin

“Oh my heart it breaks every step that I take
But I’m hoping at the gates,
They’ll tell me that you’re mine
Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough

come on take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane” <3

Lana Del Rey- Born to die <3

june needs to come sooner…hong kong, can not wait. best 2 weeks in my life i can feel it!!! first, gotta come my birthdayyyy in vegas= 9 days!!!! too much to happen in so little time! started my new job, i love it. the people are so nice!!! :)

“and then my soul saw you and and it kind of went: OH THERE YOU ARE. I’VE BEEN LOOKING FOR YOU”.

<3 Marlin

Still don’t know what to do…accepted a job offer. Haven’t started yet…waiting on another job offer in Beverly HIlls… how do i decided which one to take…both have long term results, incentives, positives and negatives in their own way… China is out of the picture…would love to take on the opportunity when given but I wouldn’t want to put my mom in the position where she is worried about me 24/7 especially in ShenZhen which is not the safest city to live in… and trafficking and prostitution is big especially in that city does scare me. It would be nice to do it but I guess there are other opportunities. Planning on going to Hong Kong either for the summer to work (trying to find a summer job) to see if I can live and adapt to the lifestyle there… if not I will be going there for a week since I will have a job.

25 days till my birthday in Vegas! It is going to be a shit show!!! I can NOT wait!!!! I want to be Forever Young!!! :) I have amazing friends and I am blessed every day to have them in my life and support me through the thick and thin. I thank Chi Omega every day for bringing these girls into my life who are not only my “sorority sisters” but have become my family, my real sisters and best friends. Girls that I know I will be friends with forever and my bridesmaids and my kids god parents. I am so lucky to have met them and they make me a better person. Chi Omega has truely blessed me and I can not thank them enough. I am one lucky girl <3

xoxo

Marlin

“Do you believe in fate? My life is at a turning point, it is a fickled bitch”

I do believe in fate but most importantly i believe in timing. Timing is everything, everything happens for a reason.

So much going on in my mind..too many decisions to make; i dont even want to plan for the future but just get through today. So many things I want to do but timing is everything… I wish i stayed in HK longer, i don’t regret it but i sure as hell wish I did to see how things planned out. Got offered a job which I am really excited about! Also have a interview for a Advertising agency  on Thursday and most importantly, got my phone interview for the China teaching program today. Honestly, I hope the interview went well… I know I did say the best answers..but hopefully they give me a chance. If I get this job, it will create the unthinkable and bring soooo many exciting events into my life. It will teach me to be independent, grow as a person and to appreciate life and what I have, help the unfortunate, learn Mandarin to better my education and it will let me actually see someone that i’ve met recently and has come into my life and impacted me and means alot to me. I don’t want to think of any what ifs or have regrets…instead of being texting half way across the world, we could actually see each other, i feel like this is something special, a special bond that we have and made…it feels like i am in a fairytale. Can’t wait to be reunited. It would mean so much more and definately will be a great experience. I am hoping and praying I get the teaching job which will mean I will be living in China for a year. This can and will be a unforgettable experience and also a life changing experience. “You never know what the future brings, just get through a day at a time”. I’m trying to not think so much about it to get my hopes up.I find out at the end of the month and if i get it, I will be leaving in July to HK for about a month and then to Beijing for 1 month training then to ShenZhen for a year. Please pray for me!

On a brighter note, my birthday is in less than 1 month! i’m turning effing 24…! I can’t wait for Vegas with my main bitches!!! It is going to be crazy and a shit show!!! counting down the days!!! :)

I’m also starting to take classes at UCLA Extension night classes, Consumer Market Research! :) I am sooo stoked about it! It will be tough work but I know i can do it.!

Went to the dentist to get my wisdom tooth checked out, felt so irritation a couple of days ago… went in this morning found out I had 2 wisdom tooth, top and bottom thats why my gums were hurting cause they were bumping into each other. Bottom was swollen, dentist asked me what I wanted to do. I said lets take it out and he said okay get ready. No pain killers, numbed my tooth, the syringe needle was hideous.. almost blacked out looking at that thing shoot into my mouth. mouth was numb… time for surgery. The bottom tooth took forever to pull out, felt the sawing and cutting. GROSS. did not want to open my eyes… finally the tooth comes out. No vicodin prescribed, Dr thinks i’ll be okay with Advil. My mouth effing hurts.. it hurts when i swallow even water… only had porridge and yogurt today. lets hope the pain and swelling goes away soon!!!

got a hair cut yesterday, definately went for a drastic change. The shortest I have ever had my hair since a was a wee tod. Dyed it red.. short hair, i cant do much to it except straighten it. but then i came across this and i am definately going to try it out!!!

xoxo

just when you think everything is going downhill…there is always another way out. there are always options, solutions to the toughest situation. even when you think you are caught in the middle and lost, there is always a plan that is coming your way that you can’t see or anticipate. There were periods of time where I wasn’t receiving phone calls for interviews but I told myself don’t be discouraged..there is something out there for me. Just take my time… started studying a little for the GRE, figured out what I wanted to do ( Consumer behavior market research), signed up for classes at UCLA taking consumer behavior courses… and baam all of a sudden, i’ve been getting emails for interviews even a possible opportunity to teach English in China. Just when I thought I was lost and getting my life back into order, all these possible opportunities come my way, the grass is always greener.

I want to work overseas, for a year or 2 to be on my own and other reasons..that night is still fresh in my memory, seems like it just happened yesterday. i want to re-live it day by day. that one night honestly made me realize what i’ve been missing and how i should be cherished and day by day i miss him more and more… he has proven to me that there are nice guys out there… the fact that we keep in touch half way across the world makes me feel like i am in a fairy tale, like a movie. If it is meant to be, things will work its way out.. He is the nicest, sweetest caring and sexiest guy with the hottest accent. I wish I didn’t meet him so late during my travel and wish I got to see him before I left. No regrets, I’m glad I got to meet him and have him impact my life.

xoxo

Mare

which means i get to see my lovely girls this weekend!!! The past couple of days have been amazing :) Went to the gym for the first time since October…but I guess my running kept me in shape since I wasn’t too sore today. I miss hong kong soooo much, wish I could go back sooon!! Stocked up on new chinese dramas, I think I should go become a actress in HK. Host food channels, cause I know I would be bomb at it!!! mmm food!!!

Realizing I might need to steer my career in a different path…gotta start from the bottom up in Social Work, i love helping people and making a difference in others lives. It will be a struggle but I can do it :) Im gonna start volunteering at a Adult Center in a couple of weeks to test out the waters. It should be a change, but a great change.

I miss my white buffalo, as Macy would call it. hahaha.

gotta get ready to watch the Laker game w/Laura at Lucky Strikes! Go Lakers <3

xoxo

Marebear

unemployment is starting to get boring… slept in as usual, woke up and went for a run. the weather was soooo nice today, not too cold or hot not too shabby at all. Ran for about 4 miles, gotta get ready for vegas pool parties!!! I have been reading Hunger Games and it is a amazing book. I understand what the craze is all about now. definately a great book and I can’t wait to watch the movie, thanks Nicole for the introduction!!!

Got my GRE books…giving myself a time frame until the end of April to find a job…if not I will start studying for the GRE; going back for Psychology: Industrial Psychology. Went to the Jimmy Kimmel taping Sunday after the Oscars, Oprah was the guest!! It was amazing!!! sooo much fun! Tomorrow is lunch w/ Suzy and Caca!!! missed my girls!!!

Tomorrow night I will be sitting 17th row at the Laker game!!! ahhhh im sooo stoked. hope my boys pull a win and keep the twolves under 100 so I can get some tacos :) wahooo!!!

Life is pretty great…i got amazing friends and family. love it!!! <3